Dilemma & Drama

Dilemma:

I got an offer to work for a public interest organization in Chicago.

Pros:

+ Chicago

+ Interesting work

+ They want me

+ Good resume builder

Cons:

- Unpaid

- Entire Summer

- Not exactly what I want to do in the future

- Need decision ASAP (Tomorrow)

I'm stressed out because although I finally got an offer, I have a callback interview tomorrow and another interview with a law firm. Both of these options are paid. Neither of them are in Chicago. I also have another firm in Chicago that I'm working on getting a job at, and I'm not sure if it will be paid or not. I have also applied to work in the legal department of a big company in Chicago, which would be paid, and something that I'm a lot more interested in.

My other jobs

BYU Gen Counsel

Pros:

+ Interesting Work

+ Paid

Cons:

- Provo

- Entire Summer

Sacramento Firm

Pros:

+ More like the work I want to do

+ Paid

+ Not Utah

Cons:

- Gamble to wait and see if I get it

- Not Chicago/NY/DC

I thought that I would be so excited when I finally got an offer that it would be a no-brainer. That is definitely not the case. What am I going to do?!

As for the drama, there is some serious drama going on in the law school right now with elections for SBA President (like student body president). Somebody is going to get a smack-down tomorrow. I think the whole thing is pretty ridiculous. It is a big deal, but I think it has been blown way out of proportion...

Making Lemonade

My 2L year of law school has been challenging and a bit frustrating at times. I feel like I've done nothing but complain for 4 months. But I'm really trying to have a good attitude and enjoy whatI do.

Coming back from break was going to be stressful because I was planning on moving apartments. I had stored all of my stuff in a friend's apartment for the break and I was going to come in Sunday night, load up my car and move. Of course, my plane was delayed an hour and it took forever to get the baggage and every single person flew into Salt Lake City at the same time so it was slow going. I get back to my apartment and my car is frozen shut and I don't know if it even works because the keyless entry didn't unlock it, indicating that even though I bought a new battery for my car just before break to prevent this from happening, it is probably dead; there is probably some electrical problem with my car which is going to be more expensive. I have to still figure out all of that.

I crash on a friend's couch for the night and contemplate my options. On Monday, I have this huge paper due (that I'd been procrastinating) and not a lot of time to find someone to donate their time and car to me and help me move and finish the paper. I decided to ask for favors anyway and I successfully moved and finished the paper by 8:30 pm. (I ended up sleeping from 9:30 pm to 6:30 am). Things are looking a lot better today. I have a lot of work to do, but it's manageable.

Today, I'm whittling down my "to-do" list, and I think by tomorrow, I'll feel like I'm ready for the semester to begin. At least it's the beginning of the semester and I don't have a ton of work to do. :)

On an unrelated note, these are the types of emails we get at the law school. It just cracks me up.

Coping with Stress

So I think it has been a very long time since I've had a headache because I feel miserable today. I'm definitely stressed - I can feel it in my entire body, and the pressure on my head is tremendous.

This week I thought for the first time, "maybe I don't want to be a lawyer" and "is this all worth it?" Now, this is a downer, and I'm sorry to put that on my loyal readers, but I had never really thought that before. The lack of a job is probably definitely getting to me.

I had previously thought, "law school is difficult" and "I wish I didn't have so much work to do," but overall, I thought I was making the right move. This week, I wasn't so sure. I guess it was about time I had a break down. It's half the reason you go to law school - to figure out what your breaking point is. (They should put that in the brochures).

However, I'd just like to say, that I became famous among my law school peers this week. Why, you ask? Did I win the 2L Trial Advocacy competition? Is my face plastered on the law school's website? Did I save a village in Ethiopia from some very complex and unjust legal issue?

No.

I will show you my fame.

You see that? I was the all-star of our Intramural Ultimate Frisbee game last night. I may not have a job, and I may be procrastinating my 30 page Law Review Note, but my life is pretty good.

This is how I deal with the stress in my life